War Story
“I sleep with the windows open,” he said, using the same gentle tone of firmness he’d used to raise his six children. This nurse, she looked young enough to be his granddaughter.
“But it’s the middle of winter and so cold.”
She’d been raised well. He could tell by her good posture and kind eyes. She was the kind who’d listen to an old man’s war stories, even feign polite interest. But he didn’t tell those stories anymore. Hitler, the Nazis, it was all black and white photographs in school books and boring documentaries to the young. They would never know what it was like to lay in a hole of frozen dirt and listen to a boy’s death cry. He hoped they never knew anything like that.
“One winter in Germany messed up my thermostat so bad that this feels like a warm summer night to me,” he said. “I’ve slept with the windows open since I came home from Europe. Drove my wife crazy in the beginning, but she learned to use me for warmth and we wound up with six good kids.”
“I’m sure it did, but – .”
“You supervisor will tell you it’s okay,” he said.
She left him. He waited in the dark and fell asleep. The wailing woke him up.
Poor boy, he thought, dead all these years and here he was carrying on.
The old man stayed still, the cold all around him, and he listened; and he was surprised when the young nurse came rushing into his room, her face ashen and full of worry.
“Do you hear that?”
None of the nurses had heard the boy crying before, not a one of them. “Don’t you worry about him,” he told her. “That young man’s been gone a long time.”
She hurried out of the room. A little later he saw the reflection of red and blue lights in the window pane. She’d called the police. That made him smile a little bit, amused. He listened to the crackling sound of their radios as they roamed the grounds. They found no dying boy.
The young nurse returned to his room. “There’s no one out there,” she said.
“Oh, but there is, we just can’t see him anymore.”
And at that moment, the dying boy resumed his crying. Jagged sobs, suffering, agony…
“I meant to kill him,” he said.
She looked back, horrified.
“That’s what soldiers do,” he said. “I only hurt him. Death took way too long.”
He thought telling more more, how they’d huddled in the dirt and talked about putting him out of his misery. They worried that a muzzle flash would be a target and that one of them would get killed. He’d said goodbye to enough friends that winter. They all had. In the end they decided that one enemy soldier could die slow and terribly if it meant one of them got a chance to live through one more night.
“I don’t understand,” she said.
Outside, the boy let out a long and sorrowful yell. Her hands went to her ears, like she could stop it. So very young, he thought, too early in life to hear what dying sounds like. But weren’t we, too, way back then?
“That’s the awful thing about it,” he said. “Does anybody?”
In the morning they’d moved on. He’d seen he boy first, sprawled out on his side, one arm stretched out like he was reaching for his own friends. His face had frozen in an open eyed mask of pain.
“Truth be told, I look forward to seeing him. I want to look him in the eyes and tell him that I didn’t mean it, that I’m sorry.”
She sat down on the edge of his bed and for long minutes they listened to a boy’s cries rip the winter night open. He got louder and louder and soon he was right outside the window.
“You know what,” the old man said.
“What?”
“I want you to let him in.”
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